No Fury

Trying To Understand

Waiting As Patiently As An Aching Heart Can

This Is My Obligatory Hell-Hath-No Blog

Where I Write How Angry I Am

How Disappointing You’ve Been

How Much I Wish I Let Go Earlier

But

I Don’t Want Cliche

I Want To Understand

I Am Doing My Best To Live N Love

Because

It’s Easier On Me To Love Than To Hate

I Want My Energy For Light & Propulsion

I Love You

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Sharlena
Mozart
Miss Honey
Hamilton
Pocahontas
Cleopatra
Kiki

When I Am Filled W Anger
I Hold You N My Heart To Banish T Darkness
To Replenish W Light

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I Remember T 3 Of Swords
I Remember Your Hermit Card
I Remember This Time Last Year

Love Lust & Light

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R
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Daddy Detox

Hello My Lovers

Hoping You Are Wonderful Todayyy

I Am Doing Surprisingly Well!

Surprisingly because I have, Flynt and I have, changed a boundary in our connection, one that, for the moment, means we will not be lovers. Of course the thought of this, the reality, makes me feel a bit sad, a bit teary but I’m getting better at this broken heart thing; I’ve had lots of practice this year. I’m learning to turn the aching heart into freely letting go and letting be and I’m getting better at this too. It’s not an end, it’s a shift, ‘time will tell’ and all that, but I feel freer, I feel a weight, a heaviness, perhaps darkness, lifted. I need my lovers, experiences and life to be vibrant and uplifting, I need to be allowed to love and give with all my heart and I need to loved and honoured in return and I need to be constantly evolving, moving forward, expanding; it’s a big time for me in my life, it’s a big time.

With the end of this phase with Flynt, I have decided there must be an end to a little role/emotional scenario I have adopted as well, which brings me to the Daddy Detox. Now, when I say’ Daddy’ I’m not meaning the one whose sperm and efforts contributed to my conception, I am referring more to an emotional Father role. Just to clarify: I have a pretty good relationship with my own Dad and it’s getting better all the time as we grow together and learn about love individually; in fact I cried on the phone with him about Flynt yesterday, he’s a good Dad. I don’t look for ‘Daddy’s’ because of any patriarchal angst or disconnection, in fact I don’t look at all, they come to me. It is, I believe, part of my Karma.

Tex was the first to bring the D into my life, a fact which is now hilarious since I’ve realized he’s a total submissive who would probably prefer me to dress him in stockings and suspenders and rail him from behind, than for me to call him the D word. Live and learn! Although Tex was not really, is not actually a top, domme-y guy, he very much dominated my mind (my favouuurite) and so we were always playing with stories, concepts and roles. I have a little sex game I like to play when I say: tell me something you want to ask me ‘to do’ that you think I would be nervous to do. I think Tex’s voice cracked as he said in a very British manner: perhaps we could pretend I was your Daddy? and he told me a little story about me coming home from boarding school and how much I’d grown, yaddi yaddi yaaaaddaaa.

Rubyyy Jones Learns About Polyamory

Hi Loversss

It Seems That Lately The/My Whole World Has Gone Poly Wild!

As We Come To Closer To Polyday, Happening This Saturday N Holborn
There’s Been Quite A Lot Of Coverage N T Media
Lots Of Condescending Clap Trap
Lots Of Goood Too

If You’re Asking Yourself What Is Poly?
Lori Smith Has Your Answer On Bitch Buzz

Wondering About Jealousy?
Clair Lewis Has Some Thoughts On Polyamory.org

Thoughtful Thoughts From Tricity Vogue
Over On Erotic Review

My World Has Been Quite Poly Focused Over T Last…
Shit 3, 4 Monthsss
Feels Like It’s Been Yearsss Since I Started Seeing Flynt
And Hamilton, For That Matter

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Here, in brief, is my history of polyamory, just to give you a little peek at a few different forms, and there are many…

Things I Looove Thursday

 Pornographic Love

Pack Up Your Troublesss

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It Has Been Brought To My Attention
That N My Latest Diaryesque Blog Post
That I Seemed A Bit Depressed

I Want You To Know I’m Ok
I’m Wonderful N Fact
I Want You To Know That I’m Moving Forward
And That, Takes Time & Honesty
I Want You To Know I’m Not Afraid Of Darkness
Cause It Takes Me Into T Light

I Like To Flirt W T Dark, W T Edge, W T Line

I’m Fine

Please Remember That I Feel Things Deep
I Feel Them W My Whole Being
I Get Pulled Into These Feelings But I Rarely Get Lost

I Resurface, Renewed, Rubyyy

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Love Lust & Light

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R
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Love & Light: Day 33

WOW!

Loversss!
I Can’t Belieeeve It’s T End Of My 33 Days Of Love & Light
*Deeep Breath*
Thank You For Spending These Lovey Days W Me My Darlings
And BIG Thank Yous To All T Angels Who Played My Love Game
And Shared Their Thoughts On Their Love & Light

I’ve Saved A Few Gems Because I Want To Keep T Love Going!
So If Anyone Would Like To Play T Love Game
Please Just Send Me A Quick Email On Rubyyyjones Gmail Com

♥

I’ve Been Holding Space W These 33 Days
I’ve Been Learning A Lot About What It Means For Me To Love
It’s Been Fascinating Learning About How Others Love
And How Many People Are Afraid To Love, B Loved, Know Love
Fair Enoughhh
It’s A Brave & Simple Thing To Love, To Share Light
But What This Time Has Reaffirmed For Me
Is That T Greatest Love Of Your Life Is… You
That Loving, Knowing & Honoring Yourself
Will Give You T Life You Dream Of
That Sharing Your Brightest, Purest Self/Light
Will Keep T World Out Of Darkness

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T Love Game W Rubyyy Jones

1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
My Willingness

2) What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover
What An Absolute Sweetheart Was Gallo, Our Time Together Was Brief; Honest, Fun & Hot
I Loved His Ability To Grow & Appreciate Whole Heartedly + His Sweet & Cheekyyy Grin

3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
I’m Such A Cheater…BUT T Entire Jeff Buckley ‘Grace’ Album

Also, Leonard Cohen’s…

And For My Music Theatre Roots

(PS Victoria Clark Is A Goddesss)

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4) What Colour Is Your Light?
Iridescent White

5) What Lights You Up, No Matter What?
Swimmming, Giftsss, Kissses, T Pop Of A Champagne Cork

6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
Rubyyy Jones Is T Light I Share

7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
  All Or Nothing

8 ) Which Symbol Represents Love For You?

♥

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9) What Word Do You Use For Light?
Light & Love & Lust
Higher Self

10) Write Your Own Version… “All You Need Is ____”

Looove

.   .   .

Love Lust & Light

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R
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Love & Light: Day 32

Ohhh Loversss

It Is Sunday And I Just Wanna B Snuggled N Bed W Someone I Love
Whispering & Kissing & Dozing…

Work Calls!
Good Better Best, Never Let It Rest, Until Your Good Is Better & Your Better Is Best
Or Something Like That *giggle*

I’m Honoured & Delighted To Present To You
T Love Game With Sharlena Wood, Artist, Teacher, Inspiration

Sharlena & I Met Years Ago, N Canada When I Was N College
And Working As A Life Drawing Model
Sharlena Was Working W An Art Supplies Company & Running Art Classes Out Of Their Headquarters
It Was Art At First Sight ♥
There Would B No Rubyyy Without Her
She Is A Constant Source Of Love, Light & Inspiration
I Look Forward To Seeing Where Her Art Goes, Where Our Work Goes

♥
Sharlena
I Love You
Thank Youuu
W All My Heart,
R

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T Love Game W My Artist…

1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
My spirit

2) What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover
:: hopeless romantic

3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
“You are so beautiful” Joe Cocker

4) What Colour Is Your Light?
Rainbow

5) What Lights (Cheers) You Up, No Matter What?
Drinking & Drawing

6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
Sharing my art ♥

7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
:: lustfully, hard & sweet

8 ) Which Symbol Represents Love For You?
<3 ♥ xo

9) What Word Do You Use For Light?
Spirit

10) Write Your Own Version…
“All You Need Is YOU”

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VITALITY By Martha Graham

 There is vitality
A life force that is translated through you into action
And because there is only one of you in all time,
This expression is unique
And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.
It is not your business to determine how good it is,
Or how valuable it is
Or how it compares with others expressions
It is your business to keep it yours
To keep the channel open
You do not even have to believe
In yourself
Or your works
You have to keep an open mind
And be aware directly to the urges that motivate you

here’s to a life of VITALITY, LOVE & LIGHT <3

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Sharlena Wood is creator of Shared Palette Interactive Art Entertainment, a popular art instructor for the Tri-Art Acrylic Education Progra, passionate about charcoal/mixed media and drawing Rubyyy Jones <3. Sharlena is self-taught artist who is genuine and true to herself, encouraging others to nurture and trust their own creative intuition. www.SharlenaWood.com // www.stormyartist.tumblr.com

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Love Lust & Light

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R
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Love & Light: Day 31

Part 2…

T Next Love Game Player Is T Devilishly Delightful Annie Player
Oh
My
Goodness…
I Wish She Could Read This To You…
She Has T Sexiest, Raspy, Naughty Voice…

Annie Player Is An Amazing Artist, Writer, Poet & Founder Of T Erotic Meet…

T Erotic Meet was established (by Annie!) to bring together all manner of artistic pervert; writers, artists, photographers and the like, to network and collaborate. I went to my first meet in London last night and it was so inspiring and fun to meet these gorgeous folks; so many lovely sexy people, building hot projects infused with love and light. I was very sad to leave early but am sooo excited to create, create, CREATE! Many thanksss to Miss Player for founding this exciting community, I look forward to the next meet! Check out the website, join or follow on FB or twitter…

And I Also Want To Say…

Annie,
Thank Youuu For Being A Light N T Erotic World
Thank You
Thaaank You

♥

Now…
Let’s hear from the lady herself…

T Love Game W Annie Player

1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
I love my spirit most, I’ve always felt free from the mundane and so I’ve collected an incredible amount of happy memories and amazing friends!
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2) What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover
My last lover is a kind and fabulously fun guy. His lust for life meant we had many adventures together… Oh and being an outdoors man, he does have a hot, firm, tanned physique!

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3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!

Dean Martin & Helen O‘Conell “How do you like your eggs in the morning…”
Can’t help but smile!

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4) What Colour Is Your Light?
Sounds obvious but Yellow
It just represents sunshine and happiness and summer fun!

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5) What Lights (Cheers) You Up, No Matter What?

Being with friends.  I’m lucky enough to have met (and still meet) many truly beautiful, kind, loving and fun folk throughout my life and because I rarely stay still, they’re dotted all over the world so they’re always there, where ever my happy feet happen to take me.

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6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
I’d love to say through song, but that simply brings tears to the eyes… I guess I bring light through empathy.  I’m very open and receptive to all lifestyle choices and attitudes – even the ones I don’t agree with I can understand and I’m often told that people find it easy to simply talk to me about stuff they may not often be able to share…

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7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
Ooh good question Rubyyy! Hmm… Fully, Freely, With Fun
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8 ) Which Symbol Represents Love For You?
Hugs!

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9) What Word Do You Use For Light?

Light is Happiness
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10) Write Your Own Version… “All You Need Is ____”
All you need is belief in yourself. Belief that you are doing the best that you can and that it’s enough.  Even when you ‘fail’ you are one step closer to success.

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“Happiness isn’t getting what you want, It’s wanting what you’ve got”

I read this quote at a very early age (still haven’t figured out who it’s by… anyone?) and it’s one that’s stuck with me throughout my life.

Which is probably why I don’t have a big house, the latest shiny gadgets, fancy car etc.  (actually, I don’t have the car because I was far too busy partying at 17 to learn to drive and then just left the country).  Instead I chose adventure and new life experiences which has given me crazy stories to tell and an abundance of memories – even the shit that sometimes comes with spontaneity is now a fond, funny (fuzzy) memory…
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 (Blame my Mother but I love this!)

For some folk, having shiny things does give them light.
For me, It’s living and learning.
Either way, it’s easy to forget just how much light we have in our lives and the quote above is a simple reminder that we don’t need whatever it is that we’re striving for to be happy.
Yes, it might be nice, it might be fabulous!
It’s not necessary though.
Appreciation of all that you have right now.
Remembering and /or realising all of the good in this moment…
That to me is contentment, true happiness… light.

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.   .   .

Annie Player is an erotic poet, artist, and event organiser… amongst other things.

She holds the Erotic Meet where creatives get together to socialise and share ideas, judges the London Erotic Awards, performs a little and laughs a lot.  You can find her Poetry and Motions blog and her erotic ebooks at www.missplayer.co.uk

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Merci Miss Player!

Love Lust & Light

♥
R
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Love & Light: Day 31

Part I…

Hi Loooverrrsss

Hope You’re Enjoying T Looove Game
It’s Been So Much Fun Reading Them & Sharing Them W You
AND
Since I’ve Had So Much Fun, Why Stop Now?!

Keeeping T Looove Flowing!

This Game Will Continue Past Our 33 Days Of Love & Light!

I’ve Got Some Wonderful Upcoming Love Game Players To Share W You
And I’d Love To Have More More More
Sooo Please Send Me A Quick Email rubyyyjones Gmail Com
When I Have A Spare Moment, I Will Email You All T Info

N T Meantime…

T Love Game W Parv…

1. What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
My complete and utter randomness. I always surprise even myself with how far and wide I can take things.*Chuckles*

2. What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover?
His overwhelmingly subtle sensuality, and with it the completeness and total care with which he looked at me.

3. What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
Draw Your Swords by Angus & Julia Stone – the most painfully in love song I have ever heard.

4. What Colour Is Your Light?
I immediately think the deepest sunlit ocean green, but that could be symbolic of finally being ready to take the plunge.

5. What Lights (Cheers) You Up, No Matter What?
The glittery light of the stars. I’ll never forget running barefoot across muddy fields deep in the French countryside shouting “look at the stars. LOOK at the STARS”

6. How Do You Bring Light To T World?
Through laughter. Good things happen and bad things happen. These are transient states. So wherever possible I try to laugh and get people to laugh with me because that (and
love) transcends everything.

7. 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love?
“I love thee to the depth and breadth and height my soul can reach…”

8. Which Symbol Represents Love For You?
My favourite flower. A lover would know which one it is and when to pick it for me.

9. What Word Do You Use For Light?
Waheguru. It implies ‘wonder at the divine light eliminating spiritual darkness’.

10.Write Your Own Version…
“All You Need Is peanut butter ” ;-b
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Chasing the Light

The first time I chased the light.

It was a rainy spring evening. The sun had set and the engines of the jet started
to rev up. It was no ordinary jet plane. The engines started to spin faster. I was
nervous. I dug my nails into the soft luxury leather of the most perfectly formed
seat and I closed my eyes. Within minutes, we would be taking off.

Pressed deep into the curves of my seat, the g-force kept my body firmly in place.
My nails dug deep, and then deeper into the leather and I shut my eyes tight as we glided effortlessly into the air. Then the jet steadied and the lights that signalled safety came on. My grip relaxed. First, my eyes opened a little and then they widened. We had broken through the rain and clouds, higher than I had ever been before or would ever go again. We were surfing the atmosphere, seducing the stars.

That was when I first caught a glimpse of her.

From the corner of my eye, I caught her subtle glow. The softness of her curves,
her alluring magic. She had me gripped, but I had yet to look at her. I turned, drawing my face closer in her direction. Through the smallest of views, I pressed my face against her as far as I could. I snuck a peek from where I had come, where her arm stretched out in one direction, and the sky was alight with stars in velvet fire coloured night. Then I looked to where her other arm was pointed, and I held my breath.

In the west, the sun was rising and its rays sneaked closer to the slumber that was expanding out in to the east. In front of me, and high above, the darkness and the
light entwined over the expansive ocean. There was no light and there was no dark, just a glow playing on the perfect curves of her stretched out on the horizon. My eyes followed the shine and that was when I looked at her. Glistening in the dewy light there she was, the Earth, as I had never seen her before.

That was the first time I chased the light.

This was the one moment in my life when I should’ve had my camera with me. I’ve never forgotten that moment. I remember that view every day, and when I remember it I wish I’d taken a bl**dy picture. Ever since then, I have never left home without my camera.

.   .   .

Parvinder Roopray

Prolific photo-documenter of everything …some would say annoying.

.   .   .

Thank You Sooo Much Miss Parv!
My Inbox Kept Eating This Little Nugget, And No Wonder, What A Delicious Piece
Much Love To Her…

Love Lust & Light

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R
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Days Can B Sunnny W Never A Sighhh…

I Can’t Remember How Long It Has Been

Since I Last Sat Here And Wrote To You

Like This

Letting It Flow

T Way It Began.

I’m Adjusting To Rubyyy Having A Face

Shaking Hands As Rubyyy

Lovers Who Say That Name Instead.

I Just Read T Above Out Loud.

I Cried.

I Always Read My Work Out Loud.

Flynt Had To Remind Me T Other Day

That I Have To Save Rubyyy Jones.

I Was N Tears,

A Theme,

I Was Feeling Like ‘A Failure’

Because Of Debt
Because I Miss Performing W A Heavy Ache N My Chest
Because I’m Feeling A Little Lost Lately.

Things Are Moving Very Fast For Me.

For Us.

We Are Learning, Or Repeating Until We Learn, At A Rapid Pace
This Is Our Place N ‘Human’ History
This Is A Test
This Is It

And I Feel It

I Feel It N My Heart
I Feel It N My Need To Sing & Shock & Strut
I Feel It Oozing & Melting Every Flimsy Rule We All Live By.

And I Know Now

I Wasn’t Crying Into Flynt’s Shoulder Because I Was A Failure

But Because I Am Failing To Give Myself Space
Energy
Support

PRESENCE

To Grow & Show & Bloom Like I Want To
Need To
Am Meant To.

I Think A Lot About Legacy

A Lot About My Present Life N T Life Story Of My Soul

A Lot About Right & Wrong & Fair

I Think Too Much.

Without Presence, T Focus Is Debt
W Presence, T Focus Is All T Things I Am Building, Pruning, Boosting
These Are Blessings
Presence Is A Choice

Without Presence, T Focus Is On T Pain I Feel From T Disconnection From Performance
W Presence, I Recognize That N Performing I Am Happiest, Strongest & Clearest
This Is A Blessing
Presence Is A Choice

Without Presence, I Am Lost.

I Must Make A Choice

I Find Myself N My Spirituality

My Light.

Every Time I Extinguish A Match
I Am 15 Again
I Am A Teenager Filled W Moxie & Simmering Self Hate
I Am A Witch
And I Am Happy.

When I Hear T Hari Krishna
On Oxford St, Around Soho
I Chase After Them
I Find Their Sienna & Gold Train Of Joy
And I Let T Ringing Of Their Bells
And T Thumping Of Their Drums
And T Vibrations Of Their Wild Voices
Blast Through Me
I Allow T Sonic Energy To Radiate & Realign
I Allow
And I Am Happy

I Will Never Forget T Dervishes Of Istanbul
I Hope To See Them Again.
A Trip W My Mother
I Sobbed N T Bathroom
Frantically Sketching T Pain I Was Feeling
Out Came A Picture Of Me
Naked W A Bloated And Bursting Tummy
W An Anchor Deep N My Cunt
Attached W A Heavy Chain To My Heart.

I Want To B N Love So Badly.

I Want To B N Love With Myself So Badly.

I Want Me.

N Presence, She Is There

N Madness, I Don’t Blame Her For Running Away

N Truth, She’s Always Here.

As I’m Stretching My Boundaries, My Vulva, My Heart
As I’m Remembering, Resurfacing, Navigating
As I’m Skipping, Fucking, Becoming
I Cannot Forget
Me

T Me Who’s T Oldest And Middle Child
T Me Who Fell N Love W T Stage From T Wings, Waiting For My Entrance. I Was Six, I Can Still Remember T Intense ‘YES’ Blossoming N My Heart, Drawing Me Into T Center, Wanting To Feel That Light On My Face
T Me Who Dreams Of True Love, Of Forever, Of One

Sighhh

That Felt Good

To Speak Like That Again

Again, It’s Hard W T Face

And Other People’s Heart

And My Heart

But It’s About Being Brave & Honest & Bold N These Times

And Thisss Has Always Been About Being Brave & Honest & Bold

Within Me

With You

For Us

Love Lust & Light

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