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Whooot!

Happy New Year Loversss!
WOW!
2012!
We’re here, we made it and, hopefully, we’re excited or, at least, optimistic. I had an absoluuutely mental December of mostly working but also traveling, a few great performances and some intense heart and soul stuff. I know you understand but I always miss you and my blog when I’m away…

*Big Hug*

One of my December highlights was performing at the amazing sexy arty party Kinky Salon London! Run by an incredible team, it’s always an interesting night out and I had the pleasure of performing for some witty and wicked people. I did my ‘I Wannna B’ act but decided to shake things up a bit and take advantage of the venue’s full nudity license – I kept my bum charm and gave them the NYC Style full monty! I had a great time; I love my body and being naked and if people cheer at the end, it’s a delicious bonus. I had a wonderful evening, as there were so many lovely people I knew that I got to chat up with and so many new friendly people to meet – also my Dark Horse was looking very yummy on my arm. Many thanks to all involved!

*Massive Hugs*

So I’ve still got some more writing to do about 2011, I got a bit burnt out by…I dunno…October? It was just such a massive year and it kept going till the last minute, didn’t it!? Jeeez! But I’m gunna take this time to look ahead and just brainstorm some things I’d like to write about in 2012…

BLOG THOUGHTS…

How To Get Over A Lover Break Up
How To Get Over A Friendship Break Up
My Feminist Manifesto
The Tantra Of Rubyyy Jones
Butt Love: The Freedom Of Anal Sex
Finding Your Glamour
The Crown Of Love
Massacre Sex
I Hate The Word ‘Chubby’
I Hate The Term ‘Vanilla’
10 Ways To Stay In The Light
Cultivating A Healthy Fantasy Life
Bukkake!
Pleasure Portals Workshop Review
My Safe Sex Guide
What Is Energy?
Manifesting And You
Why Three ‘Ys’ Rubyyy Jones?
My Guide To Being A Showgirl
I Get Pussy Plastered
10 Things To Do In London
Save Rubyyy Jones Update
The Girl Who Broke My Heart
Sensual Vs Sexual
Sex At All Ages!
Introduction To The Chakras!
MORE Sex Superheroes!
MORE Burlesque Show Gossip!
MORE Book Reviews!
.   .   .

BRING IT ON 2012

Love Lust & Light

♥
R
Rubyyy Jones

On Twitter @rubyyyjones
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Oh Yeahhh…

Hi Loversss

Hoping You Are Well & Wonder-Full Today

After having a bit of a rough day yesterday, I’m feeling hopeful and fragile today, as if I’ve just been soaked and scrubbed by 3 large Turkish women in a bath and spun out into the street. A bit of a Bambi-heart, wobbly with the first steps, but again, moving forward. I’m very lucky. I’m very blesssed.

I was introduced to Marianne Williamson back in college by an incredible teacher; he gave us the extended version of the speech below, on a piece of A4 paper. It was our final year of school and it was our first big theatre production of the year. Still sorta bright eyed and bushy-tailed. I hung this speech next to my light switch, so I would see it every morning and every night. It was also around the time I was introduced to Louise L Hay, and this was a big turning point for me, emotionally and spiritually. I’m still learning how to separate my different voices. My head, my heart, my gut.

Though this speech is often attributed to Nelson Mandela; it and Marrianne’s book ‘A Course In Miracles’ are invaluable bunches of wordy light…

.   .   .

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

~ Marianne Williamson, A Return To Love: Reflections On T Principles OfA Course In Miracles

.   .   .

Holding you in my heart today

Thank you for all the love and light

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

On Twitter @rubyyyjones
On Tumblr Rubyyyjones

Muse/ic

Hi Lovers!

Get Readyyy For Some Valentines Love From Rubyyy

Ooo I Just Can’t Wait, It’s Been N My Head For Ages

Doing A Little Shoot & This Is My Soundtrackkk…

Goldfrapp’s “Seventh Tree” – Follow T Link For A Lil Playlissst

Looove Her

Note To Self: Peacock Numberrr

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

Ego Eulogy

Ohhh Loverrr

What can I sayyy?

I’m a little lost at the moment, but I’m keeping the faith and trusting in my path

These are some of the things I know for sure:

• I Am A Performer
• I Am A Writer
• I Am A Muse
• I Am An Artist
• I Am A Fiercely Loyal Friend
• I Am A Healer
• I Want To B A Part Of Healing Global Sexuality

I kinda want to go back in time, and spy on myself when I was 15
I pretty much owned the world at 15, I was the world!
I was going to be an actress, on Broadway, films on the side of course
I wanted to live and die on stage
I was going to have 14 children and no husband
My career, my craft, my creative life were everything to me
While other teenagers were partying
I was practicing singing/dance, making crafts, masturbating to Garth Brooks CDs

I was in looove with the romance of sex
Also with penetration
Specifically obsessed with the idea of virginal vaginal penetration
N my VC Andrews novels
The women quite often ‘gasped’ when ‘he moved inside her’
I would act out these moments
Practice gasping different boys names
Seeing which one sounded best
Always adding a little grimace ’cause they tell you it hurts
So even if “Nathaaan” “Jaaamie” “Williammm”hurt me I would always solider on
It was supposed to hurt

It’s odd
And it’s kinda the way I feel now, though I’m lighter…
I was on top of the world and on the bottom at the same time
Thannnk god I was a performer, or I don’t think I would be typing this today
All the emotion I carry in this bodyyy
Depression and suicidal thoughts plagued me too often
I once said to my Dad:
“I can’t help but imagine throwing myself under a truck when it goes by”
It was a time of so much beginning and ending
T hormones made it hell
Now I see the patterns and embrace with more positivity
And though I wasn’t so deep
It was only a few months ago when I said to myself
“No one would care if we/I/you were gone”…

So who said it?
Me?
No
My ego…

T truth is, what I’m feeling now is a death
It is the suicide of my ego
All these last ditch attempts to keep me in the dark
A death rattle
T fear and T doubt and T anger
They are not me; I am kind and brave and honest

So, my feelings of “lost” are this…
I know what I AM
But what do I want TO B…?
What do I do with this force of nature self
With this drive to make the masses come with love & light
With the living need to perform in front of a live audience
What is my legacyyy?
How does it all come togetherrr?

I suppose I don’t need to know right now
I must trust and reconnect
With the divine and my own divinity
This is keyyy

I know I’m almost there
Now, can you please hold me & kiss my forehead?

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

2011 Resolution

Bonjour Loversss

Life has kicked it into high gear and I’m shifting up myself
So many things getting on track, moving forward, getting tuned up!

I’m super busy this week – workshopping a great new play!
It’s all about the NYC art scene in the 80′s
Jean-Michael Basquiat, Keith Haring, Andy Warhol
I play Mary Boone, art dealer and director of her own gallery. in SoHo
I’m really enjoying discovering my ‘Mary’ but I really need to tuck in as it’s only a week long thing! And I still can’t figure out how she walks!
For me, I can tell this means I don’t yet understand my character fully
It’ll come!

Resolution #2

Be More Like Mary Boone
Refine personal vision/dream
Break down into steps
Laser focus, eye on the prize, go till you get it

Artist, Eric Fischl said about Mary:

She’s changed radically. Dramatically but slowly, if that’s possible. She’s really moved from a mono-focused, obsessive, driven character who could be bullying, infuriating, quick to argue and ultimately isolated to somebody who—through her spiritual development, her revelations—serves her community.

I love this quote, it moves me so! Reminds me how much we have in common (Our birthdays are 5 days apart) and informs me so much on Mary and  her time in the 80′s.
Also reminds me, how lucky I am to have a spiritual life and how very important it is for me…

Things Are Over Between BBB & I As Lovers
Time To Begin T Beautiful Friendship Phase
This Was T Last Lusty Photo He Took Of Me… Of My Face Anyway ;D

I Must Write Soon
I Will!
I Miss You…

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

2011 Resolution

Hello Loversss
It’s been one craaazy week but it’s just making me all the more excited for the incredible things 2011 has to offer…The possibilitiesss!
So I’ve got a few resolutions set, but why not take your time with something you want to stick to, right?
Be clear about what you want
Why you want it
What you’re going to do to get it
This is my first…

Keep a journal separate to my blog/tumblr/twitter, agenda, etc
Keep some things juuust for me

I used to be very good at this and have kept all my full notebooks
I love to use pictures and clippings and mementos
Tape or paste them in
Little sketches, doodles
Big ideas, showsss & costumes
But mostly words, constant streaming
I treated myself to a new journal and a beautiful set of markers for Christmas
I can’t wait to fill it up!

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

(My friend Sophia St Villier suggested a great Jack Canfield article for goal setting, check it out!)

Just Wondering…

Lover

Whatever Made You Think I Wasn’t Interested N Settling Down?

What Part Of Love Lust & Light Don’t You Understand?

I’ve Said It Before, And I’ll Say It Again Because I Mean It:

I Believe N Love

I Respect Love

I’m Not Fucking Around…

When I Settle Down It Will B On Top Of My Throne

Proudly Perched Next To My King

Overlooking Our Growing, Vivid Dream Empire

And Nothing Lesss

.   .   .

I’m Thinking About A Clean Slate

Seems 2011 Is Pushing For It Alreadyyy

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

Takin N 2010: Part ll

Mmm Lover, Hellooo

Feeling A Bit Restless! Wanna Creaaate! Wanna Cooome!

My Next Batch: Accomplishments Of 2010…

• Burlesque debut at T Tournament Of Tease (A Judge Fav!)
• New sexy clever Twitter friendsss (Follow me here!)
• Embraced visual art in my life, as my own outlet for expression
• New ego planted; working on maintaining, weeding & watering the rest of my Soulgarden
• My relationship w Cleopatra, our friendship is a constant source of flow, anchor and light
• T repeal of DADT. Because I believed it would happen. Because I visualized a world where that kind of discrimination no longer exists. Because it’s a victory for us all when people are freed.
• Several epic fancy dress costumes! Personal fav: Jesus Christ
• Began my jetset career life
• My 1st squirting orgasm
• Meeting my readers! And they’re great!

All This Takin N Of 2010 Is Making Me All Excited For 2011!
It’s Going To B An Incredible Year Of Dreams Come True

Thank You For Sharing 2010 W Me

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

Takin N 2010

Lovvvers!
*kisss*

BBB suggested making a list of accomplishments of 2010
‘But ohhh’ my voice pitching up ‘I don’t feel like I’d have anything to write’
‘Which is exactly why you should do it’

Well, aren’t I lucky to have a renaissance lover, equal in bed and brains!
I’ll start with 5…

• Established Rubyyy Jones WordPress
• Traveled to 7 different countries
• Had my erotica republished on Fleshbot
• Had my first partner sex orgasm
• Made some beautiful art w Jophiel

Whew!
That wasn’t sooo hard *giggle*
Now tell me lover, what are your first 5 accomplishments of 2010?
I wonder if we can get to 25… Hmmmm

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

 

 

T Journey Of Rubyyy

Dear Lover,

I’ve missed you terriblyyy
I have to admit I’m feeling a bit needy at the moment
Wanting a special someone, a partner, to be here with me
To cuddle and to kiss and to fuck me, of course
But also to be here with me
As I visit my hometown over the holidays

Today I wanted a special someone
To ride in the car with me
To remark on the patchwork fields surrounding my town
Corn broken by snow or tobacco buried unseen
The beautiful old houses in town and outside
Sipping Tim Hortons coffee and smoking a joint
To giggle with me over drunk relatives and can-you-believe-she-said
Drinking too much red wine and falling in the snow
Then sharing these sweet, painful, confusing, honest moments from my past
To hold me in the town where that thing happened
To stroke my hair
Kiss my head
Cup my face in his hands and gaze
Meeting the locals
The sweet people of my childhood who hardly recognize me now
I was “Rebecca” then
I was the lean and tall girl of the family
With the blonde ringlets and the odd eyes
I was known for being wise, clever and dramatic
From an early age, I could see adults approaching me with caution
You must understand
I can see right through you
And as I child I was a ball of radiant energy
I’m working to release and become as psychic and intuitive as I was then
(I’m getting back there)
At any rate… the caution is still there
But then again
Lately
I feel like I’ve been seeing it regularly
N strangers
N family
N friends…

I feel my journey to becoming ‘Rubyyy’
Began when I embraced the ‘lust’ side of myself
I was celibate, practicing sex skills and getting in touch with my vulva
Though it was a lusty time there was looots of love happenin too
I started this blog, formerly ‘an(n)onymous’
I met Samurai
I met Christopher Witecki
Big Times

I embraced my ‘love’ side
I went brunette and breathed a sigh of relief
I turned 25
I met Beaux and he righteously preached love
I fell for him, hard and bloody
I met BBB
Then I met Samurai face-to-face
And he put some of the pieces of my heart back together again
I had my first orgasm with another person, my Samurai
I made my burlesque debut
BBB became my lover and has been helping me build my foundation
Rebuild my ego and stitching the last pieces of my heart in place

Now feels like time for the ‘light’
T creative process
T religion of Rubyyy
Developing my intuition, my healing, my sight
T wisdom of allowing the pain of the past to fully release
T transformation, the freedom, the joy the comes from a personal spiritual life
I love the sacred energy behind ritual, a daily ritual
A little altar, heck with a statue of every god or goddess ever praised!

Being here and home
It’s makin me all reflective and shit… *giggle*

I want you to know I’m happy
I promise I am
There’s so much emotion swirling through my body
I’m just remaining calm and still, being the anchor I need
It reminds me what I need to feel supported and loved
It’s good
Being my special someone

Love Lust & Light

♥

R

P.S. Say ‘I Love You’ to people you love today, don’t waste a moment