With A Heart As Big As Texas…
October 7th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Heya Loversss
Welcome To Fridayyy /// Hope You’ve Had A Lovely Week!
I’m welcoming the weekend with a little love and light brought by Gemma Waterson. A writer, librarian and sweetheart, you can find her writing on Uppercase F and as a contributor for the wonderful For Books Sake…
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The Love Game W Gemma
1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
That’s a difficult question to answer! I suppose I like that I give everything to the people I care about. I don’t really tend to hold back in relationships. And that I’ve managed to land on my feet and take care of myself through difficult times.
2) What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover
His sense of urgency, which was a bit of a double edged sword to be honest.
3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
The first one that comes to my head is I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston, but I hate that song! I don’t know why that popped in there. If I was to choose my favourite love song, it would be quite a different answer- that would be Willie Nelson’s I’d Have to Be Crazy, or Bob Dylan’s Lay Lady Lay.
4) What Colour Is Your Light?
I think it’s probably pink, even though it’s not really a colour I’m drawn to.
5) What Lights You Up, No Matter What?
A kiss on the forehead and a cuddle. A phone call at the perfect moment.
6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
I try to encourage the people I believe in as much as possible. And also I think working with books is giving something back to the world. If I help someone read a book that changes their lives, that’s significant. It’s why I do what I do!
7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
Fully, dotingly, and with a sense of humour.
8 ) Which Symbol Represents Love For You?
A big fat delicious white cake with lots of frosting, and sugared candy.
9) What Word Do You Use For Light?
Joy.
10) Write Your Own Version… “All You Need Is ____”
…someone to take care of you when you’re sick.
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Love
My definition of love has changed a lot over the years, as it should really. When I was a young teenager, love was putting a poster up on my wall and idolizing it. Love was buying all the stuff with his face on it. Love was just lust, but I didn’t really understand that.
When I got into my mid teens, love became this all encompassing thing, and was mostly directed at people that didn’t (and could never!) know the first thing about my feelings. But it was such an overwhelming feeling that I couldn’t think about anything else. It was training wheels for actual love.
Then came my late teens, and my first actual love. At that time, love was putting into practice all those years of LOVING SOMEONE SO MUCH but having it reciprocated. It’s intense, and often has very little to do with practicalities, compatibility, or- even just a little bit- the person you’re in love with.
In my mid twenties I experienced losing love, and that put the whole thing quickly into perspective.
Now I can’t say that I know everything there is to know about love, but I do feel that I understand how to love within a proper, healthy, and grown up relationship. I’m not just in love with the idea of love anymore, which is what I’ve spent the majority of my life doing. Now I’m in love with a person- the actual person- and it’s so much more fulfilling. Instead of trying to enrich someone else’s life and make them happy, I realize that love is something that should enrich your own life. And love should inevitably make you happy.
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Gemma is living in London, by way of Texas and Scotland. She spends her working life up to her elbow in books, scanning and digitising old science books at the Natural History Museum. She spend her personal life up to her elbows in everything else that comes with living in a city like London.
Sending You Love & Light Sweet One!
Love Lust & Light
♥
R
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Days Can B Sunnny W Never A Sighhh…
August 19th, 2011 § 1 Comment
I Can’t Remember How Long It Has Been
Since I Last Sat Here And Wrote To You
Like This
Letting It Flow
T Way It Began.
I’m Adjusting To Rubyyy Having A Face
Shaking Hands As Rubyyy
Lovers Who Say That Name Instead.
I Just Read T Above Out Loud.
I Cried.
I Always Read My Work Out Loud.
Flynt Had To Remind Me T Other Day
That I Have To Save Rubyyy Jones.
I Was N Tears,
A Theme,
I Was Feeling Like ‘A Failure’
Because Of Debt
Because I Miss Performing W A Heavy Ache N My Chest
Because I’m Feeling A Little Lost Lately.
Things Are Moving Very Fast For Me.
For Us.
We Are Learning, Or Repeating Until We Learn, At A Rapid Pace
This Is Our Place N ‘Human’ History
This Is A Test
This Is It
And I Feel It
I Feel It N My Heart
I Feel It N My Need To Sing & Shock & Strut
I Feel It Oozing & Melting Every Flimsy Rule We All Live By.
And I Know Now
I Wasn’t Crying Into Flynt’s Shoulder Because I Was A Failure
But Because I Am Failing To Give Myself Space
Energy
Support
PRESENCE
To Grow & Show & Bloom Like I Want To
Need To
Am Meant To.
I Think A Lot About Legacy
A Lot About My Present Life N T Life Story Of My Soul
A Lot About Right & Wrong & Fair
I Think Too Much.
Without Presence, T Focus Is Debt
W Presence, T Focus Is All T Things I Am Building, Pruning, Boosting
These Are Blessings
Presence Is A Choice
Without Presence, T Focus Is On T Pain I Feel From T Disconnection From Performance
W Presence, I Recognize That N Performing I Am Happiest, Strongest & Clearest
This Is A Blessing
Presence Is A Choice
Without Presence, I Am Lost.
I Must Make A Choice
I Find Myself N My Spirituality
My Light.
Every Time I Extinguish A Match
I Am 15 Again
I Am A Teenager Filled W Moxie & Simmering Self Hate
I Am A Witch
And I Am Happy.
When I Hear T Hari Krishna
On Oxford St, Around Soho
I Chase After Them
I Find Their Sienna & Gold Train Of Joy
And I Let T Ringing Of Their Bells
And T Thumping Of Their Drums
And T Vibrations Of Their Wild Voices
Blast Through Me
I Allow T Sonic Energy To Radiate & Realign
I Allow
And I Am Happy
I Will Never Forget T Dervishes Of Istanbul
I Hope To See Them Again.
A Trip W My Mother
I Sobbed N T Bathroom
Frantically Sketching T Pain I Was Feeling
Out Came A Picture Of Me
Naked W A Bloated And Bursting Tummy
W An Anchor Deep N My Cunt
Attached W A Heavy Chain To My Heart.
I Want To B N Love So Badly.
I Want To B N Love With Myself So Badly.
I Want Me.
N Presence, She Is There
N Madness, I Don’t Blame Her For Running Away
N Truth, She’s Always Here.
As I’m Stretching My Boundaries, My Vulva, My Heart
As I’m Remembering, Resurfacing, Navigating
As I’m Skipping, Fucking, Becoming
I Cannot Forget
Me
T Me Who’s T Oldest And Middle Child
T Me Who Fell N Love W T Stage From T Wings, Waiting For My Entrance. I Was Six, I Can Still Remember T Intense ‘YES’ Blossoming N My Heart, Drawing Me Into T Center, Wanting To Feel That Light On My Face
T Me Who Dreams Of True Love, Of Forever, Of One
Sighhh
That Felt Good
To Speak Like That Again
Again, It’s Hard W T Face
And Other People’s Heart
And My Heart
But It’s About Being Brave & Honest & Bold N These Times
And Thisss Has Always Been About Being Brave & Honest & Bold
Within Me
With You
For Us
Love Lust & Light
♥
R
Rubyyy Jones
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Love & Light: Day 29
August 18th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Things I Looove Thursday
Lipsss/tick
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Thoughtful & Stylish Blog / Rarely Wears Lipstick / Lori Smith
Poet & Performer / Ernesto Sarezale
Naked Boys Singing
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Introducing Artist Natalie Irish
She Paints W Her Lipsss…
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My New A4 Filofax / Ohhh Mama!
Mantra Chanting / Beautiful Buzzz N Lips & Heart
Pompadour Pink / Rockalily Lipstick
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T Love Game W ReeRee Rockette Of Rockalily Lipstick
1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
I love my ability to be proactive. I am the friend you come to when you need advice on getting something done.
I loved his accent! He was also kind, and we shared the same sense of humour.
3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
Bon Jovi ‘Always’
Rockalily Rockette Red
My friends and a bottle of a wine.
6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
I like to think I’m a positive person who encourages others to reach their full potential.
7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
I love cautiously but wholeheartedly and fully.
Perhaps a lock and key.
Strength.
10) Write Your Own Version… “All You Need Is ____”
All you need is a belief that you can be whatever you want to be.

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Kisssing / For Hoursss / T Best
Tootsie Pops / T Red Ones
Straws / I Love Them / I Want These
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My Favourite MAC Shades
Rebel
Snob
Rubyyy Woo
Gaga Viva Glam
Lickable
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87 Souls
Photo Blog Of T Fabulous Daniella Maiorano
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Love Lust & Light
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R
Rubyyy Jones
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