Wet Wednesday
September 21, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Hellooo Lovers
It’s a beautiful fall day here in London and I’ve been scheming and working away this morning, on how to make my sexiest, fullest life. It seems to me I need to bring a little luxurious lust back in my day to day. I’ve been healing and letting go, while still holding on to Flynt; I’m still quite surprised how easy the transition has been on my heart. I love Flynt and a part of me was in love with him but I was careful not to fall in love; we both know what we want in this life, as far as family, tribe and hearth and it’s so very different. Life is moving too quickly to dawdle with these things and we’ve fast moved to becoming closer friends, almost family; to me he feels like a brother. I think that little part of me will always be in love with him, with part of him and I’ll hold that sweetness so dear to me but know I can give more by being a sister and a friend.
And so I look for lust in other places. I had an interesting weekend with the Kinky Salon party… When the day came I was feeling tired, nervous and disconnected from Flynt; we were to be each others buddy for the event, you must have a buddy! I was feeling, more accurately, a bit confused by our relationship, as my heart was feeling a bit hopeful about reconnecting and I was horny as hell. I smoked all day to avoid coping with all the things I was feeling, an indulgent day. The party was fun but I was stoned and overwhelmed by the many things I was feeling, seeing and thinking. I managed to find some focus with a tall gentleman who I have connected with a few times before. I was initially attracted to his warm face and the way his eyes changed when he listened, the first time we met it was sweet. The next time was more lusty, at a time when I was feeling very soft and needing only love and light, it was nice but not what I really wanted. I wanted that sweetness again. At the Salon I appreciated the way he kissed me on the cheek, even as I moved to meet his lips, again I felt warmed by his attentions, his sweetness, his eyes. Later than evening we fucked a little, fully dressed by the bar, just beside the crowd; only fingers but enough for me to ask him to stop, I didn’t want to come on the dance floor and the girlfriend I borrowed my skirt from requested ‘no jizz’ and I’m sure that included my own.
After our fun I felt so many things, and many of them to do with my settling feelings with Flynt. He taught me how to gush and come and part of me wondered if that would only be with him or if I was changed because of him; it would appear the later is true. I think that the part of me that’s still in love, hoped it would only be with him. The encounter also highlighted something else I’ve been feeling, it’s been six, almost seven months since I had an sex involving a cock and… well… I’m kind of nervous. I’m nervous because I feel vulnerability on a new level now, I’m nervous because my sensuality and sexuality has changed so much since meeting Flynt, I’m nervous because part of me only wants to fuck people who love me. I’m excited too, for fun, for sweet penetration, for cock wrapping comes. I wonder how many times I will feel like a virgin in my life.
Sooo I’m bringing in, literally, the lust and bringing it to a new level around me. I want to have some fucking sexy safe empowering shuddering fun, I do not think this is too much to ask for. I want to be desired by virtuous and horny men and women. I want to be fucked with gracious intent, loving dominance and purest passion. I want to be adored and be allowed to adore. I want dirty texts, flirty photos, audio orgasms and everything inside me. Again. I do not think this is too much to ask for…
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To bring you some lust and to celebrate Wet and Wanton Wednesday
I’ve decided to do a little recording of my story Reunion
Here is Part I…
Please enjoy! and see what the other Wanton ones are up to…
Love Lust & Light
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R
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Daddy Detox
August 30, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Hello My Lovers
Hoping You Are Wonderful Todayyy
I Am Doing Surprisingly Well!
Surprisingly because I have, Flynt and I have, changed a boundary in our connection, one that, for the moment, means we will not be lovers. Of course the thought of this, the reality, makes me feel a bit sad, a bit teary but I’m getting better at this broken heart thing; I’ve had lots of practice this year. I’m learning to turn the aching heart into freely letting go and letting be and I’m getting better at this too. It’s not an end, it’s a shift, ‘time will tell’ and all that, but I feel freer, I feel a weight, a heaviness, perhaps darkness, lifted. I need my lovers, experiences and life to be vibrant and uplifting, I need to be allowed to love and give with all my heart and I need to loved and honoured in return and I need to be constantly evolving, moving forward, expanding; it’s a big time for me in my life, it’s a big time.
With the end of this phase with Flynt, I have decided there must be an end to a little role/emotional scenario I have adopted as well, which brings me to the Daddy Detox. Now, when I say’ Daddy’ I’m not meaning the one whose sperm and efforts contributed to my conception, I am referring more to an emotional Father role. Just to clarify: I have a pretty good relationship with my own Dad and it’s getting better all the time as we grow together and learn about love individually; in fact I cried on the phone with him about Flynt yesterday, he’s a good Dad. I don’t look for ‘Daddy’s’ because of any patriarchal angst or disconnection, in fact I don’t look at all, they come to me. It is, I believe, part of my Karma.
Tex was the first to bring the D into my life, a fact which is now hilarious since I’ve realized he’s a total submissive who would probably prefer me to dress him in stockings and suspenders and rail him from behind, than for me to call him the D word. Live and learn! Although Tex was not really, is not actually a top, domme-y guy, he very much dominated my mind (my favouuurite) and so we were always playing with stories, concepts and roles. I have a little sex game I like to play when I say: tell me something you want to ask me ‘to do’ that you think I would be nervous to do. I think Tex’s voice cracked as he said in a very British manner: perhaps we could pretend I was your Daddy? and he told me a little story about me coming home from boarding school and how much I’d grown, yaddi yaddi yaaaaddaaa.
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Love & Light: Day 29
August 18, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Things I Looove Thursday
Lipsss/tick
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Thoughtful & Stylish Blog / Rarely Wears Lipstick / Lori Smith
Poet & Performer / Ernesto Sarezale
Naked Boys Singing
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Introducing Artist Natalie Irish
She Paints W Her Lipsss…
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My New A4 Filofax / Ohhh Mama!
Mantra Chanting / Beautiful Buzzz N Lips & Heart
Pompadour Pink / Rockalily Lipstick
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T Love Game W ReeRee Rockette Of Rockalily Lipstick
1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
I love my ability to be proactive. I am the friend you come to when you need advice on getting something done.
I loved his accent! He was also kind, and we shared the same sense of humour.
3) What’s T First Song That Comes To Your Head When I Say… Love Song!
Bon Jovi ‘Always’
Rockalily Rockette Red
My friends and a bottle of a wine.
6) How Do You Bring Light To T World?
I like to think I’m a positive person who encourages others to reach their full potential.
7) 3 Words To Describe T Way You Love
I love cautiously but wholeheartedly and fully.
Perhaps a lock and key.
Strength.
10) Write Your Own Version… “All You Need Is ____”
All you need is a belief that you can be whatever you want to be.

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Kisssing / For Hoursss / T Best
Tootsie Pops / T Red Ones
Straws / I Love Them / I Want These
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My Favourite MAC Shades
Rebel
Snob
Rubyyy Woo
Gaga Viva Glam
Lickable
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87 Souls
Photo Blog Of T Fabulous Daniella Maiorano
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Love Lust & Light
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R
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