October 25, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Gosh, What A Difference A Year Makes…
It Was My Birthday Yesterday, I Turned Seventy Seven
I Quite Like Getting Older
Looking Forward To My Thirties
Although I Feel Like My Life Has ‘Begun’
Something Tells Me That Time Will Be Mentalll
And I Know Everything In Between Will B Wild And Wonderful Too…
So Thinking Back On Where I Was A Year Ago
Rubyyy Jones Had Juuust Been Born
(Oh, Happy Anniversary Darling)
But The Birth Was Simply In The Word
Tho We Had Made Our Burlesque Debut
It’s Taken Most Of This Year For Me To Really Understand
What I’m Doing With The Burlesque
What I Want To Say As An Artist And Educator
So, Most Of Rubyyy Lived On This Blog
Almost In Love With Samurai, Attached A Bit Too Heavily
Still Seeing BBB, Wondering About That Attachment
Big Shifts Happening Within My Friend Relationships
Huge Energetic Gaps After I Let Go Of Some Deep Attachments To Ego, Conditioning and Negativity, Leaving Me Wobbly Spiritually
Learning To Face The World With A Vibrant Vulnerability, Connected To The Natural Flow Of Things
Coming Out Of The Dark Of A Very Depressed Twenty-Sixth Year
I Was Only Finding My Feet
Today I Am So Very Proud Of Myself
To This Day I Love, And Am Loved In Return, By My Various Lovers Of The Year
I Cherishhh The Sweetest I Keep W ‘Former’ Lovers…
( Do You Ever Stop Being Lovers In Your Connection?… )
I Am Working Hard To Save Rubyyy Jones
And Though I Think I Could Work Harder Sometimes
I’ve Learned The Wisdom Of Gentleness And I Know I Am Always Doing My Best
My Orgasms Have Changed
My Hair Has Changed, Several Times…
My Dreams For Rubyyy Jones
For Peaceful Inner Enlightenment, Remain A Constant
I Continue To Build And Seek My Chosen Family
And I Feel Lucky To Include Lots Of The Special People From My Biological Family In This Growing Tribe
I Feel The Pure Bravery Returning To My Day To Day
Gearing Up To 2012 And 2014
Certain Dates I Have In Mind
The Return To My Fearless Teenage Self Is Most Exciting, When I Feel The Balance Of My More Experienced, Thoughtful Self Bringing Me Always Into Grace With My Actions
Grace, Graceful, Grateful
I Wish To Embody These Three States Of Being
It Feels Wonderful To Be Awake Again
To Fuck And Make Love To/With People Who Are Awake
To Collaborate, Create And Boost People Who Are Awake
To Know The Possibilities Of An Awake World
I Have So Many People, Situations & Opportunities To Be Thankful For
I’m Looking Forward To Seeing What This Year Brings
I’m Looking Forward To Being Thankful This Time Next Year
I’m Looking Forward
Power In The Reprise…
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Love Lust & Light
October 19, 2011 § 8 Comments
Just What I Needed
Just When I Needed It
Just What I Needed
Crouched At My Feet
Off All Kinds Of Layers
My Every Pore With Your Touch
Every Inch With Grateful Eyes
Me In This Life And The Rest
Hold Me In Between
Ripped Wide Open
In Tears, Juices, Sweat
What I Want
This Is What I Want
“It’s What I Want”
Before The Come Gates Open
Something I’ve Said
Only Once Before
That You See Me
To Be Soft More And More
To Be Me More Often
In Your Heart Was Understood
On Paper, In Sweat, In Song
To Your Love, To Your Preciousness, To You
. . .
This Weeks Prompt Is #Paper
All The Wanton Onesss
Love Lust & Light
October 18, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Hellooo Lovely Lovers!
How Are You?
I Am…Very Well, A Bit Sicky Still But Happy
Sorry To Have Been A Bit Absent Lately
Busy Busy Busyyy Times In My Life But More So In My Heart & Mind
Since I started seeing Jackson, I’ve been reconnecting with and also learning a lot about my need for sex with intimacy, spirituality and hotness all at the same time. This really feels like the sex, sexual relationship, sex life, I’ve always wanted. One thing we are both working on is our ability to be totally present with each other and only sharing sex in this totally conscious state. It’s been a wonderful challenge with fantastic orgasmic results! I’ve learned a lot from books, from my spiritual education, from lovers but I’m wanting to learn more SO I will be attending an upcoming workshop series at Sacred Pleasures called Pleasure Portals.
This is a four session course with classes on: Wednesday 2nd Nov – Conscious Touch, Wednesday 9th Nov – Tantra, Wednesday 16th Nov – Conscious BDSM, Wednesday 23rd Nov – A Conscious Play Party. I am sooo excited! Courses will be taught by Rebecca Lowrie, London Faerie and Claire Black; I know Rebecca and London Faerie from various fun events around Londontown and have heard many wonderful things about Claire Black. A few months ago I attended London Faerie’s Your Kinky Cherry, I wanted to attend because part of me was still unsure on the spiritual safety of BDSM play, dynamics and relationships. It was a really wonderful workshop, fascinating and very much in the love, light zone; which is exactly what I was hoping to find. As a teacher I found London Faerie to be knowledgeable on the sexual and sensual sides of sex, as well as really warm and welcoming (as is the Sacred Pleasures space!). I met Rebecca at Private Pictures, after weeks of ‘who is this sweet lady!’ and she did not disappoint; I have yet to be taught by Rebecca but she has an absolutely delicious energy which is so grounded and connected, I’m very much looking forward to learning from her.
So I promise to keep you posted on my learning and growing through this course! Also, I believe, if you are in the London area, there is still a little space in the class. You can come alone or not, you can be the most vanilla or the most kinky, just come! Here are some class/registration details and they have concessions if need be and have wheelchair access!
See You There!
Love Lust & Light
October 17, 2011 § Leave a Comment
It’s that time again Loversss! Check out some of best in erotic writing and blogging; this month my Period Positivity Things I Looove Thursday got the e(Lust) flowing! Take a peeek!…
Photo courtesy of Emmy @ Right Turn Without Signaling
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Crotch Topiary & Other Delights – I admit I started simple, I realised my teenage dream of having a Winona-inspired heart emblazoned on my mound. It was perfect. I used Contact paper to design my heart and just went to town pulling out every hair that was not covered.
In Defense of Exclusion – Sometimes it’s nice to be with people who are like you. It’s nice to be around people who get your kink, your fetish – to be somewhere that you don’t have to explain it to.
The Boy At Summer Camp – It started with an email with the subject line “butch at your service,” and an offer for a blow job. And I thought, hm. Well, you know, I do like those. But I’m not usually attracted to boys.
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October 11, 2011 § 1 Comment
It’s been one of those times again, where things are morphing and changing so fast, I’m hesitant to write them down. Want to give things, relationships, situations their space, in their unformed potential, to become what they will. I’m starting to understand how my writing effects different people close to me, and part of that understanding is still coming. I think Flynt may feel my blog, my writing ruined some of our potential, I will ask him but I don’t know what to think about that. I write from my heart and the heart changes so quickly, it’s so fluid it feels precarious to write about it now. But I am love. You know that Shirley song: Today, Tomorrow, Love Will Come And Find Me, Cause That’s The Way That I Was Born To Be, This Is Me, Thisss Is Me… Well that’s something I’ve realized on an even deeper cellular level recently, I am love. And not just me, obviously, we all are but there’s that very important power in positive self acceptance. So much of our self acceptance mottos, religions, etc emphasize accepting, owning the worst about you… But don’t forget about also accepting and owning the best! So I recognize this now, that I am love, I am loving and I am lovable.
I recently met a lovely man who has been helping me with some healing. some moving forward and some comes; lets call him… Jackson. We bumped into each other at a few parties before we finally connected and just at the right time, I was needing some wonderful intimate sex, some spiritual conversation and some tough sweetness and he is great at all three. We’re definitely lovers, it feels very intimate but it’s still casual, light and fun; just what I need. I’ve never fucked someone who speaks to my whole body the way he does, our play before our fuck reminds me a bit of the unbridled lust of secret teenager fucking. In the car or your parents living room, charged, ravenous, aggressive; it’s like that without the frantic fumbling, it’s absolutely delicious. I’m also happy to be loving with someone sweet as I’m feeling overwhelmed by my new orgasms, just a little and after sex of whatever kind, I feel very vulnerable…and dehydrated. After the fuck we lie together stroking and talking for hours, perhaps a few more orgasms for me, but mostly we connect more sensually, also just what I need.
So I’ve been making space in my heart, in my cunt, in my life for Jackson and, with true openness, to others and it’s been a little tough. When making space and connecting ties with new people, experiences, there tends to be a letting go, an untying of previous attachments to feelings, people, habits and it’s been painful for me to let go of some of my remaining romantic threads with Flynt. Bittersweet, I guess. I want to, which makes it easier, but with that letting go there seems to be a breaking down of the illusion, of what we had and some of the experiences we shared, not necessarily a sad thing, definitely an important emotional inventory. And though I believe we will always connect as lovers, know each other that way, something has to give a little for me to have space to grow new loves. And don’t get me wrong, the love I had for and shared with Flynt was incredible and one of the truest experiences I’ve had of love but it’s just easier to see the smoke from the trees from a distance. Hindsight is twenty twenty. Blah blah blah.
Although I’ve enjoyed for many years now, the pleasures of a non-monogamous lifestyle and I’ve learned and grown a lot because of my letting go to ego attachments around owning someone or being in love or needing someone to complete me. So knowing what I know simply from my own experiences, I know my heart feels like it has shifted gears, after the years of growing, experimenting, saving Rubyyy Jones, I need a person. A person. My person. My heart home base. I’m going to keep seeing Jackson, stay open to others but I know that my heart is sending out a beacon for this adventure. I care for Jackson and I feel love for him as a fellow adventurer, as a friend who fucks me into new heights and as an awake ally; I am open to it being him, to it not and I know he’s open to just about everything. He is teaching me a lot about letting go in many waysss.
Thanks for being my person lovers…
Love Lust & Light
October 4, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Todayyy He’s Sharing A More Sensual Side…
The Love Game W Eric Amaranth
1) What Do You Love Most About Yourself?
That I’ve accomplished the feat of loving myself and can also love others.
2) What Did You Love Most About Your Last, Not Latest, Lover
Her beauty, company, and how she looked and sounded when she orgasmed. « Read the rest of this entry »
October 3, 2011 § 1 Comment
And Welcome To My Brand New, Exciting, Educational Series On Those Who Are Working To Bring Us All Healthier Sex Life Relationships, Relations & Revelations…
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To start my series I would like to present to you, a dear friend, Eric Amaranth. When I began my journey to discover true orgasms, I sought out all sorts of resources, mostly books and websites, and I discovered Eric in Betty Dodson’s Orgasms For Two. Eric lives in NYC and is a sex life coach, specialising in women’s and men’s sexuality, basic to advanced sex skills, and sex education – more on that from Eric below. After reading more about the different coaching options, I was pleased to see that he offered sessions over Skype and we very soon had an appointment in the diary for a talk session; this sort of session does what it says on the tin, talking and asking questions, you can also booked guided and lovely customized sessions with him. I felt quite nervous to meet with Eric, as I didn’t have a lot of experience talking to people about sex and being a man, I was admittedly that little bit more nervous. First of all – Look at this face…
…As soon as he popped up on my little Skype screen (you don’t have to use video!) I felt at ease. Eric has a soothing voice, a very warm energy and you can tell right away that he is really listening to you. We had an amazing talk session, one hour, and by the end I was wishing I had written down more questions! Eric is very knowledgable, nothing phased him and not naming anyone specifically he was able to use his past experience with clients and lovers to relate to everything I was asking about. Sometimes it’s just nice to hear you’re not the only one. I’ve had several sessions with Mr Amaranth and I have grown so much from what I have learned from him, I really wouldn’t be where I am today in myself and sexuality if it weren’t for him. So I’d like to take this moment to say:
Thank Youuu Eric
Thank You With The Whole Of My Heart
Now here’s a little more from the man himself!…
. . .
In 3 sentences: what is a sex life coach?
The new form of sex therapy without the therapy. A sex life coach certainly has a more thorough knowledge base on physical sex skills than sex therapists, which are psychology-based. I also understand how the physical can interact with the mental and emotional.
When did you realize sex was your calling?
The calling, or what compelled me, was to do two things for people that I saw did not have a professional resource: solve sexual problems that are outside a psychologist’s training and be the resource for making an already good sex life an incredible one.
How has being a sex life coach changed your sex life?
It narrowed down my pool of prospective partners very quickly. When I told a woman what I do, it was immediately clear whether we’d be amazing together or, “See ya!” Women who valued good sex came to the fore which was a better thing for me in the end.
How did it feel to be written about in Orgasms For Two?
It was good to show people other options for a heterosexual relationship and shared sex life. Looking back on it, not everything in the book applies to most relationships, but many of the principles are very useful and I incorporate into my couples coaching.
What’s the biggest misconception about you and your work?
Many assume I am a sex therapist because the public isn’t aware of another term for people in my field. Therapist means psychology-based, in most cases. My service differs from what a psychology-based sex therapist does. Nope! I do not have sex with clients.
Please share something you have learned from a client.
I learned that women can be born with two fully functioning birth canals (vaginas). Only one clitoris and one gspot though.
If you could take one lesson away from your time with Betty Dodson, what would it be?
The most profound thing overall is her ability to effectively teach clients this material and the intricate variations of detail in many given situations. That’s what took years to impart. She’d been sex coaching for almost 30 years.
Do you identify as a feminist? Why or why not?
There are different kinds of feminists. Some don’t care about forwarding female sexuality. They focus on other issues. I am a pro-sex feminist, as Betty calls it.
Give Us A Freebie Sex Tip!
You must start working as a team with your partner for better sex. Do that, and the road is paved for developing tremendous sexual pleasures.
Name a contemporary/colleague you think we should all know about
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And Stay Tuned!
Because Tomorrow, Eric Plays The Love Game
Love Lust & Light
September 21, 2011 § Leave a Comment
It’s a beautiful fall day here in London and I’ve been scheming and working away this morning, on how to make my sexiest, fullest life. It seems to me I need to bring a little luxurious lust back in my day to day. I’ve been healing and letting go, while still holding on to Flynt; I’m still quite surprised how easy the transition has been on my heart. I love Flynt and a part of me was in love with him but I was careful not to fall in love; we both know what we want in this life, as far as family, tribe and hearth and it’s so very different. Life is moving too quickly to dawdle with these things and we’ve fast moved to becoming closer friends, almost family; to me he feels like a brother. I think that little part of me will always be in love with him, with part of him and I’ll hold that sweetness so dear to me but know I can give more by being a sister and a friend.
And so I look for lust in other places. I had an interesting weekend with the Kinky Salon party… When the day came I was feeling tired, nervous and disconnected from Flynt; we were to be each others buddy for the event, you must have a buddy! I was feeling, more accurately, a bit confused by our relationship, as my heart was feeling a bit hopeful about reconnecting and I was horny as hell. I smoked all day to avoid coping with all the things I was feeling, an indulgent day. The party was fun but I was stoned and overwhelmed by the many things I was feeling, seeing and thinking. I managed to find some focus with a tall gentleman who I have connected with a few times before. I was initially attracted to his warm face and the way his eyes changed when he listened, the first time we met it was sweet. The next time was more lusty, at a time when I was feeling very soft and needing only love and light, it was nice but not what I really wanted. I wanted that sweetness again. At the Salon I appreciated the way he kissed me on the cheek, even as I moved to meet his lips, again I felt warmed by his attentions, his sweetness, his eyes. Later than evening we fucked a little, fully dressed by the bar, just beside the crowd; only fingers but enough for me to ask him to stop, I didn’t want to come on the dance floor and the girlfriend I borrowed my skirt from requested ‘no jizz’ and I’m sure that included my own.
After our fun I felt so many things, and many of them to do with my settling feelings with Flynt. He taught me how to gush and come and part of me wondered if that would only be with him or if I was changed because of him; it would appear the later is true. I think that the part of me that’s still in love, hoped it would only be with him. The encounter also highlighted something else I’ve been feeling, it’s been six, almost seven months since I had an sex involving a cock and… well… I’m kind of nervous. I’m nervous because I feel vulnerability on a new level now, I’m nervous because my sensuality and sexuality has changed so much since meeting Flynt, I’m nervous because part of me only wants to fuck people who love me. I’m excited too, for fun, for sweet penetration, for cock wrapping comes. I wonder how many times I will feel like a virgin in my life.
Sooo I’m bringing in, literally, the lust and bringing it to a new level around me. I want to have some fucking sexy safe empowering shuddering fun, I do not think this is too much to ask for. I want to be desired by virtuous and horny men and women. I want to be fucked with gracious intent, loving dominance and purest passion. I want to be adored and be allowed to adore. I want dirty texts, flirty photos, audio orgasms and everything inside me. Again. I do not think this is too much to ask for…
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To bring you some lust and to celebrate Wet and Wanton Wednesday
I’ve decided to do a little recording of my story Reunion
Here is Part I…
Please enjoy! and see what the other Wanton ones are up to…
Love Lust & Light
September 20, 2011 § Leave a Comment
Was over on Filament Magazine online, rereading an amazing interview with the goddess Annie Sprinkle…
(For those of you who know me, you know I looove Annie; for those who don’t, now you do
And those who know me, also know my looove for Marina Abramovic, now you know that too)
So Annie was talking about the porn she enjoys viewing and she mentions the following film by Marina. Now I have nooo idea how I have never seen this…
I’m going to be thinking about this for weeksss
Love Lust & Light
September 17, 2011 § 2 Comments